This is my March....has yours been as interesting??

Here is the update, I still have to do my Cole's notes of the last two years but that will be short, brief and done on the weekend!
March has been a very monumental month for me! This is it! The very last month of IUI perhaps ever in my life. I don't know why but I feel relieved that it is done. From here, if I did not conceive Willi B, it is on to IVF for us and like a good friend B told me, it is something to be excited about because there is a much higher chance of pregnancy with IVF. And she is right. I trust her for a few reasons but most importantly, she has been there once and is back again doing her next IVF in April.

Please excuse the abbreviations but they are necessary!

Mar 2 - Day #3 - started FSH 75IU
Mar 9 - CD#10 - 3 follies growing (11, 9, 9) up to 100 FSH
Mar 11 CD#12 - 3 still growing, continue on 100FSH
Mar 14 CD#15 - 1 follie at 14, rest stopped growing, take 125 IU of FSH, estrogen 368
Mar 16 CD#17 - follie at 20, estrogen surge to 721
Mar 17 CD#18 - IUI with 1 follie, 11 million prewash, 1.8 million post, test on Mar 31, will be seeing doc on Mar 30 so will test same day. Last IUI before IVF

There it is! My month recapped. With everything that has been going on, you would think that there would be more. I haven't mentioned the amazing things we did this month, this is all Willi B stuff. It is not ever separate from my "regular" life but there is also a totally different train of thought that goes with TTC at this point. It never is our one and only focus but when it is, it monopolizes so much of my time and energy that it becomes an entity in itself. Is that sad...or a bad thing...I don't really know.

To quote Brittany:

"I used to think, I had to answers to everything"

About Us....

Well, this is us! Looking at this picture sometimes makes me want to cry. The reason...a coworker told me once that only one thing that was missing from it was a baby. She then pointed to the spot where she thought the baby should be sitting. Innocent little comments like that hit the hardest and the deepest. Without even knowing it or trying to hurt me, she did. How could she have known that we have been trying, waiting, wishing and praying for that for so long? There is no answer but the feeling remains.

We have it all!! A wonderful friendship that blossomed into a marriage filled with love and laughs. Two good hearted people with full time jobs, a nice home, a lovely family, great friends and the best "guard" dog out there. We have it all....everything anyone would ever want for their own children to have in their life and here we are, 2 years later still waiting for a miracle baby of our own....our own Wee Willi B. The name for the factious baby that haunts my dreams comes from a few sources. First being "Been", this is my husband's nickname for me. My maternal grandmother who described me as "Wee" as I was born a month premature so that is where that fits in and the "Willi" come from my dear husband and his perfect surname that I happily inherited, making me Jilli Willi :) and "B" is for baby....oh dear....trying not to cry....special thanks to the hormone injections....will get to that later!